Today officially makes 6 years of me being a mom! It has been one hell of a journey, and every step of it has impacted my career and health. It feels both amazing and bittersweet to be celebrating this day without my uterus.

I’m feeling better than I ever have thanks to my radical hysterectomy, but there will always be a small part of me that grieves not having been able to experience parenthood in a happy way and with less trauma, to give my son a happier mother. Ultimately though, I’m just relieved to be done with it, happy to have survived, and eager to move on to the next chapter of healing as we approach our sixth year as parents. I could have never survived another pregnancy, and I’m so grateful to be celebrating another birthday of my lonely only.

This day means so much more than just the birth of my child though, as monumental as that itself is. This day is also the celebration of my health, my mortality, and my ability to survive against all odds. This year my child has requested we celebrate that the doctor’s finally agreed to give me the hysterectomy I so desperately needed, so our plans will be small and very intimate, as usual, allowing us to rejoice in the family we created. Watching my son grow is the best emotional healing I could have ever asked for, and I love watching every second of it. There have been so many challenges, and such turmoil, that our little family is ready for the reprieve from the storms that this day brings. His birthday is our chance every year to bond closer, and really enjoy the sheer miracle that is all of us together.

From severe pregnancy trauma, to BJx walking away from a nearly fatal car crash as I was in labor, and most recently the horrible Essure injuries I survived, it really, really is a miracle that all three of us are alive and well to cheer for this 6th anniversary of becoming a family. We are so happy, and so grateful, to be parents to such an amazing, high spirited, cunning individual. 2019 has brought so many health problems and difficulties, but it’s also brought long awaited 5 year molars, massive speech improvements, and a brilliant kindness with such profound empathy that we are excited to watch the adult he is becoming. Parenting is exhausting, but it is also the most wonderful journey I’ve ever undertaken.

Here’s to 6 years of being a mother!

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