I have started filming! Slowly! Sort of. Not really. 🙂
Actually I’ve only filmed 3 times since surgery. My focus has been on
recovering and staying clear of the pandemic as best as possible. I
was hardly 111 pounds before surgery, a very unhealthy underweight, so
I’ve been exceptionally busy healing and taking care of only myself.
My days are spent with lots of snack naps, orgasms, extra naps, and
binge watching Outlander and button smashing Witcher 3 on my xbox one.
Physically my healing has progressed very well. I’m no longer
underweight, and I’m maintaining a healthy weight that doesn’t
fluctuate. THANK GOODNESS! I’m still eating everything in sight and
sleeping tons. To be expected when it’s your second major surgery for
a life threatening condition within the same year. I still move very
slowly and need help with lots of things, but I’m doing lots of things
without help and even more things totally by myself now. I’ve slowly,
slowly, slowly started picking up help with some of the easy housework
here and there and generally being more active with things like baking
and gardening again.
It will likely be quite some time before I dance or exercise in any
form again. Some days I’m still too tired to even do walking, but I’m
eating all solid foods for all meals and I’m generally in an extremely
low to no pain state, fatigue notwithstanding. Honestly, in the grand
comparison of my life, I’ve not experienced this low a continuous pain
state since I was about 10 or 12 years old, so well before puberty.
Endometriosis is a royal bitch.
The vaginal cuff abscess was incredibly problematic, but healing from
it has been far easier than the endometriosis problems. There have
been a few bumps along the way with troublesome stitches not wanting
to dissolve but we’re staying optimistic that things will move along
without any further intervention or help. Dear lords fingers crossed
because I’m soooooooo fucking done with the emotional bullshit that
comes with surgery. Worst case scenario I lose even more of my vagina.
Best case scenario the troublesome stitches come out on their own or
with mild assistance from my surgeon.
As for work, I’ve filmed only 2 custom videos since initiating my
recovery time off. I’m still rejecting most custom requests that come
my way because they’re simply asking way too fucking much from someone
who just came so close to death and is barely managing to eat 3
regular meals every day. Dudes, I’m napping! Let me chill! Unless it’s
a hella insanely ridiculously easy fetish request to film solo,
there’s a 99% chance I’m not going to do it because I’m too tired. My
body physically cannot handle any strain or stress, and it should not.
It would compromise my healing to put any form of stress on it, and I
refuse to do anything at all to cause setbacks in this healing. Enough
is enough and more surgery is both expensive, dangerous, and time
consuming. I want to be well and life a long, healthy life, and any
fan who truly appreciates my work will respect my health and the
waiting process that comes with me easing slowly back into filming at
a gentle pace.
For custom fetish video requests that are modified to fit an extremely
slow filming pace, I may consider them. I may also be simply far too
tired and hungry to safely film. Consider before requesting. No
erection is worth risking my safety or health.
My days are spent planning meals, tinkering around with new baking
recipes and ideas, carefully gaining weight and maintaining a healthy
weight that isn’t scary low, tracking vaginal stitch dissolving
progress, gently pacing housework, and ending each night with very
careful, very slow paced orgasms. My vaginal healing requires precise,
delicate care, so there is no dividing of attention there at all.
Most afternoons I have my texting lines on for sexting, fetish and
kinky chat, and femdom texting. With warning or a rare spontaneous
moment of privacy, I have started taking some calls here and there.
They are still far and few between though, when not prearranged. My
video stores are all still updated daily or near daily with the odd
weekend off here and there, but member updates will still be slow for
a bit longer as new routines are established and my healing takes more
steps forwards. I’ve largely got everything filmed, but have to find
the time to edit everything in a timely fashion as well as juggling
staying awake long enough to type out descriptions and actually upload
it. With things continuing on in an upward trend for my health, I’m
hoping to eventually find a bit of new energy soon to start and
maintain a more regular update schedule than just once a week. For now
updates will continue on with one phone archive update and one video
update weekly until things are caught up on a better schedule. Until
that happens, all videos containing orgasms, vaginal penetration, or
blowjobs will be posted for members first before anywhere else. At
this time, all orgasm videos since approximately March are still
available for website members exclusively. It won’t last for long, so
enjoy these pricey videos at your special member price while they stay
exclusive. ;P
As for me, it’s late and I’m an incredibly busy full time work from
home mom that has been prescribed nightly orgasms to prevent future
surgeries and hospitalizations. It’s time for a bit of what the doctor
ordered and a giant dose of sleep. Thanks for reading!
Rosexxx