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Surgery Recovery and Complications

Surgery Recovery and Complications

Surgery was on January 28th. I've been home since then, despite experiencing several complications. I developed hematomas over the incisions, and had a pain crisis shortly after surgery. Recovery has not been going smoothly, though I am alive and stable. I have since...

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Here’s to 10 years! And the last year of my 20s!

Here’s to 10 years! And the last year of my 20s!

Thank you for 10 years of creative, entertaining, and unique experiences in the adult industry! Your support has made all of this possible, allowed me to teach myself special effects video editing, raise a family, support myself financially through hard times and...

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Filming Update!!

Filming Update!!

It is with rather unfortunate tidings I bid you this holiday season, because my last filming days until 2022 are tomorrow and Friday of this week. ALL filming closes for 2020 and 2021 on December 11. Alas, I wish that were a typo, but life and health bring their own...

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Recovery Update and Filming Schedule

Recovery Update and Filming Schedule

I have started filming! Slowly! Sort of. Not really. 🙂 Actually I've only filmed 3 times since surgery. My focus has been on recovering and staying clear of the pandemic as best as possible. I was hardly 111 pounds before surgery, a very unhealthy underweight, so...

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Excision and Revision Surgery Post-op Update

Excision and Revision Surgery Post-op Update

I haven't had a chance to give the official diagnosis from my surgery on March 12th. Well, it could all be surmised with three words...."I WAS RIGHT!" My surgeon had been misdiagnosing me with anxiety and muscle spasms for a few months, delaying treatment needlessly...

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Surgery Day

Surgery Day

Today I am undergoing excision surgery, vaginal cuff revision, and cystoscopy for my endometriosis. On the one year anniversary of my emergency life saving hysterectomy due to Essure rupturing my fallopian tube, I am finally getting my first true endometriosis surgery...

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Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!

Halloween has long been my favorite holiday. I have never enjoyed another holiday, not even my birthday, as much as I adore Halloween. Today, October 31st means even more to me now. Today marks 9 years of marriage, and 10 years of togetherness for BJx and I. We were...

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Panty Raid

Panty Raid

My panty drawer is truly overflowing these days, and I think it's time for a clean out. On the flip side, my for sale panties are about to go up in price by, well, a fucking ton. Here's the thing, it's easy for me to just grab a pair of panties from the drawer and...

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Fall Scheduling and Winter Plans

Fall Scheduling and Winter Plans

With school now in full swing, my business hours are rocking!!!! I am absolutely loving my privacy and work hours! YAY!! But this blog post is not all good news unfortunately. However, things are going well, so the tone of this post is entirely optimistic. I'm going...

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Incurable Invisibility

Incurable Invisibility

I am hurting. My pain can’t be seen. The is nothing visibly wrong. Even my scars are hidden, tucked away inside, Impossible to view unless you cut me in two. Every test comes back normal. Everything looks healthy. I don’t look sick, Not from the outside. There is no...

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Normal Pain

Normal Pain

Today I woke up feeling great. I wanted to play dolls. There was nothing wrong with me at all. I went to bed feeling happy and healthy. Today I woke up feeling tired. I’m not sure what’s wrong. I took a nap and felt better. I went to bed feeling good. Today I woke up...

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Musings on Healing After Essure

Musings on Healing After Essure

Essure- steals lives, kills babies, and crushes dreams. It feeds corporate greed, turns doctors into unfeeling machines, and turns good people into broken husks of pain and shame. Essure is the lock on the closet door holding thousands hostage. Essure stole over a...

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16 Weeks Radical Hysterectomy Post-op Update

16 Weeks Radical Hysterectomy Post-op Update

I am officially 16 weeks post-op from my radical hysterectomy. Yay!! Hooray!! It has been a difficult road for sure! I knew going in that my endometriosis wouldn't be cured, but it's still managed to throw me for more than a few loops during recovery. Each tomorrow...

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Endometriosis- Diagnosis Social Death

Endometriosis- Diagnosis Social Death

Endometriosis is not a disease for the living. It a slow decay into the waking dead. Endometriosis is isolation. Living with chronic pain is contagious and deadly, for any form of human compassion or kindness. The invisible barbed wires protrude and infect like an...

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Summer Scheduling for July and more!

This week's video update schedule has been adjusted to reflect some of the special effects editing I've been learning and behind the scenes clips. With the tail end of my recovery blending with my new filming schedule and the start of parenting with summer hours, I've...

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Here Comes Summer!

Here Comes Summer!

It is officially the last day of school! Hooray! Yay! It has been a super crazy year for our family, my health, and my work. We are all looking forward to a relaxing break at home this season. I'm still recovering from my radical hysterectomy and finding that I need...

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Healing Update Plus Upcoming Filming Schedule

Healing Update Plus Upcoming Filming Schedule

This makes week 9 since my radical hysterectomy on March 15th. Being only 9 weeks (7 technically when you account for catheter removal) post-op means that lots of things are changing, rearranging, and still actively healing. I've taken down all of the notices about my...

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6 years as a mom!

6 years as a mom!

Today officially makes 6 years of me being a mom! It has been one hell of a journey, and every step of it has impacted my career and health. It feels both amazing and bittersweet to be celebrating this day without my uterus. I'm feeling better than I ever have thanks...

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Recovery and Surgery Update

Recovery and Surgery Update

Good news and bad news! The good news is that I survived the severe injuries sustained by the horrible Essure devices inside my Fallopian tubes, my radical hysterectomy was a monumental success, and I'm in the least amount of pain I've ever been in my entire life....

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SURGERY DAY

SURGERY DAY

Today I am undergoing major surgery to remove the recalled Essure devices inside of my Fallopian tubes. In August of 2018 I got sick and felt one of the coils slip. In the following months, pain would steadily and rapidly increase from cramps 2 weeks of every month to...

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Help Rose Recovery From Major Surgery

Help Rose Recovery From Major Surgery

Guess what?! At age 27, I am now preparing for a full hysterectomy! As some of you may know, I have been greatly struggling with health problems and have been entirely bedridden since August. This is entirely due to the Essure coils inside of my fallopian tubes...

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Decision Day

Today I have a pretty major doctor's appointment. We'll be making the decision on when to schedule surgery. There's too much else to say on that subject, but suffice to say that there will be videos to cover my absence. There will be new videos upon my return too....

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