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Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!

Halloween has long been my favorite holiday. I have never enjoyed another holiday, not even my birthday, as much as I adore Halloween. Today, October 31st means even more to me now. Today marks 9 years of marriage, and 10 years of togetherness for BJx and I. We were...

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Panty Raid

Panty Raid

My panty drawer is truly overflowing these days, and I think it's time for a clean out. On the flip side, my for sale panties are about to go up in price by, well, a fucking ton. Here's the thing, it's easy for me to just grab a pair of panties from the drawer and...

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Fall Scheduling and Winter Plans

Fall Scheduling and Winter Plans

With school now in full swing, my business hours are rocking!!!! I am absolutely loving my privacy and work hours! YAY!! But this blog post is not all good news unfortunately. However, things are going well, so the tone of this post is entirely optimistic. I'm going...

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Incurable Invisibility

Incurable Invisibility

I am hurting. My pain can’t be seen. The is nothing visibly wrong. Even my scars are hidden, tucked away inside, Impossible to view unless you cut me in two. Every test comes back normal. Everything looks healthy. I don’t look sick, Not from the outside. There is no...

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Normal Pain

Normal Pain

Today I woke up feeling great. I wanted to play dolls. There was nothing wrong with me at all. I went to bed feeling happy and healthy. Today I woke up feeling tired. I’m not sure what’s wrong. I took a nap and felt better. I went to bed feeling good. Today I woke up...

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Musings on Healing After Essure

Musings on Healing After Essure

Essure- steals lives, kills babies, and crushes dreams. It feeds corporate greed, turns doctors into unfeeling machines, and turns good people into broken husks of pain and shame. Essure is the lock on the closet door holding thousands hostage. Essure stole over a...

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16 Weeks Radical Hysterectomy Post-op Update

16 Weeks Radical Hysterectomy Post-op Update

I am officially 16 weeks post-op from my radical hysterectomy. Yay!! Hooray!! It has been a difficult road for sure! I knew going in that my endometriosis wouldn't be cured, but it's still managed to throw me for more than a few loops during recovery. Each tomorrow...

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Endometriosis- Diagnosis Social Death

Endometriosis- Diagnosis Social Death

Endometriosis is not a disease for the living. It a slow decay into the waking dead. Endometriosis is isolation. Living with chronic pain is contagious and deadly, for any form of human compassion or kindness. The invisible barbed wires protrude and infect like an...

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Summer Scheduling for July and more!

This week's video update schedule has been adjusted to reflect some of the special effects editing I've been learning and behind the scenes clips. With the tail end of my recovery blending with my new filming schedule and the start of parenting with summer hours, I've...

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Here Comes Summer!

Here Comes Summer!

It is officially the last day of school! Hooray! Yay! It has been a super crazy year for our family, my health, and my work. We are all looking forward to a relaxing break at home this season. I'm still recovering from my radical hysterectomy and finding that I need...

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Healing Update Plus Upcoming Filming Schedule

Healing Update Plus Upcoming Filming Schedule

This makes week 9 since my radical hysterectomy on March 15th. Being only 9 weeks (7 technically when you account for catheter removal) post-op means that lots of things are changing, rearranging, and still actively healing. I've taken down all of the notices about my...

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6 years as a mom!

6 years as a mom!

Today officially makes 6 years of me being a mom! It has been one hell of a journey, and every step of it has impacted my career and health. It feels both amazing and bittersweet to be celebrating this day without my uterus. I'm feeling better than I ever have thanks...

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Recovery and Surgery Update

Recovery and Surgery Update

Good news and bad news! The good news is that I survived the severe injuries sustained by the horrible Essure devices inside my Fallopian tubes, my radical hysterectomy was a monumental success, and I'm in the least amount of pain I've ever been in my entire life....

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SURGERY DAY

SURGERY DAY

Today I am undergoing major surgery to remove the recalled Essure devices inside of my Fallopian tubes. In August of 2018 I got sick and felt one of the coils slip. In the following months, pain would steadily and rapidly increase from cramps 2 weeks of every month to...

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Help Rose Recovery From Major Surgery

Help Rose Recovery From Major Surgery

Guess what?! At age 27, I am now preparing for a full hysterectomy! As some of you may know, I have been greatly struggling with health problems and have been entirely bedridden since August. This is entirely due to the Essure coils inside of my fallopian tubes...

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Decision Day

Today I have a pretty major doctor's appointment. We'll be making the decision on when to schedule surgery. There's too much else to say on that subject, but suffice to say that there will be videos to cover my absence. There will be new videos upon my return too....

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Let’s Get Weird

It's Halloween!!!! Things are fully creepy, and about to get a lot spookier. With my 8th anniversary (wedding and career!!!) approaching, I wanted to ring in the festivities with something wholly disgusting. Yes! Disgusting! This week's video updates will fair more on...

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The Winds Bring Change

The Winds Bring Change

Ok, so I have no clue where to start or how to say this, so I'm just going to spit it out. There's been LOTS of shake ups in my health and physical wellness lately, so the types of updates I offer may change. Lots. There are many uncertainties for my health and we're...

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The State Of My Health

The State Of My Health

Oh my...... I'm not even really sure where or how to begin. Today is a BIG day for me. While you're reading this, I'm going to be strapped to an OB/GYN table and enduring more than a few excruciating exams that will have me out of commission physically and emotionally...

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Moms Need Sex Too

Honestly, I could just leave it at that. That would be enough, "moms need sex too," but as my career is mostly catering to the adult men of the world, it is blatantly known to me that these sentiments are unfortunately not shared. As a mother, and especially as a mom...

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Get Crazy

This week's updates are going to push two different sides of me. One hand is the mysterious, sensual MILF in silks and jewels, pampered and pleasured in every way. The other hand is the wild, greedy pervert that knows well how to enjoy sex. You've seen my kinky side...

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A Week Of Rest

It's not uncommon that I over work myself. I'm willing to stop at nothing to provide for myself and my family, even more so now that I've clawed our way above the poverty line with sheer ingenuity. That said, I can't be happy or content in the long term if I'm...

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